ONCE AGAIN I HAVE CLOSED A BLOG THAT I HAD STARTED...
I CAN'T SEEM TO GET IT IN MY HEAD THAT I DO NOT HAVE TO BE DOING OR SAYING ANYTHING TO PROVE I LOVE GOD, OR AM PLEASING HIM THROUGH WORDS OR WORKS...OR LOVE THE BRETHREN...
WHAT PLEASES HIM IS THAT OUT OF OBEDIENCE TO THE LEADING OF HIS HOLY SPIRIT, I AM SPEAKING HIS WORD AND DOING WHAT HE HAS CALLED ME TO DO...HE IS MY FELLOWSHIP...
THAT FELLOWSHIP THAT IGNITES THE COMMUNION OF THE BRETHREN...THAT FELLOWSHIP THAT POURS OUT HIS MINISTRY AND EDIFICATION OF THE BELOVED...
ONCE AGAIN I HAVE SPOKEN WHAT I KNOW IN MY HEAD...BUT MY HEART AND SPIRIT SOMEHOW THINKS IT IS NOT ENOUGH.........
NOT ENOUGH FOR HIM?...OR NOT ENOUGH FOR ME?...
I SIT HERE EVEN NOW WONDERING WHY I CAN'T UNDERSTAND HOW TO MAKE THAT PERSONAL COVENANT OF COMPLETE AND UTTER SURRENDER...I DESIRE IT WITH ALL OF MY HEART...AT LEAST I THOUGHT I DID...
AND THEN I CAME ACROSS THIS WONDERFUL WORD FROM A BROTHER IN CHRIST.... THAT HAD SOUGHT THE LORD CONCERNING WHAT I HAVE JUST SHARED...IT FOLLOWS....
********************
You will never appreciate or benefit from fellowship until you have learned to live without it...
There already exists a fellowship of saints...it is a spiritual fellowship and it is based on Christ having the preeminence...not the fellowship having preeminence...
All this yearning for fellowship and being with others is a result from being hung over from the religious system. (not in every case)...the more correct statement would be that we are trying to fill an emptiness in ourselves that even church fellowship didn't fill...
The purpose of solitude in your desert place (your emptiness) is to get you to see that Jesus is ENOUGH...You're certainly not going to die from lack of fellowship...if you don't learn that Jesus is enough, how can you convince anyone else that He is?...
It is this type of thinking that causes confusion of mind and spirit...it is death...KNOWING HIM is LIFE!...he is fullness of joy...He is peace...He is comfort...he is hope and confidence...everything that fills and fulfills a life...drawing that life into fellowship with Him...
He's the One that we need to be focused on...but are we really?....am I really? Or am I trying to start a fellowship of my own...a group or church with another name...? Trying to make something happen with other people...get their lives turned around for the good...so I can feel good about myself...helping God do what I think he needs to do...GOING AHEAD OF HIM, OR TURNING ASIDE TO WHAT OTHERS THINK I SHOULD BE DOING...
I know exactly what you are thinking...I've been there..."you know you're not suppose to forsake the assembling of yourself with others...God made us social beings...God knows we need the encouragement from other believers...we're all parts of the Body of Christ, Right?...you're not suppose to be out there doing your own thing...you need a shepherd...you need the elders...and the help they can give you in wisdom and guidance and prayer and...........
All the above is true...but I want you to know this...God wants YOU TO KNOW if you love Him...or do you love your fellowship with others more?...
This is how far I got in reading this dear brother's post...and I knew I couldn't go any further until I had an answer to this question...actually two questions...
1. Do I know that I can live without the fellowship of other's who know the Lord?...
2. Do I love my fellowshipping...and my spiritual words and works more than waiting on the Lord for His Word, and the work that He sets before me?...
Lord...even as you asked Peter if he loved You....until he cried out, "Lord only you know....I too am coming to You just now and asking you to bring me to pure honesty as to my relationship in You and my relationship in the brethren...
My relationship cannot exist without a covenant relationship with you...a KNOWING OF YOU...
Pour the oil of Holy Spirit on me Lord...even the watering of your Spirit Word...that I may learn of Your interceding heart...and feed your sheep...Show me the Way to your Secret Hiding Place where I can find Your Fellowship that makes me trustworthy for the fellowship of others...for I have somehow lost my way...
No comments:
Post a Comment