BORN, RISEN AND COMING AGAIN

                               
LORD YOU ARE BEAUTIFUL ___ I SEE THE BEAUTY OF AN ARTIST'S EXPRESSION OF YOU IN THEIR INTERPRETATION OF YOUR HUMANITY ___I KNOW THAT IT IS NOT YOU IN REALITY. 

I SEE YOUR BEAUTY IN THE MOST UNLOVELY ONES WHO WORSHIP YOU IN SPIRIT AND IN TRUTH.  WHO MANIFEST THE GLORY AND PRESENCE OF YOUR LOVE, PATIENCE, GRACE AND GENEROSITY BEYOND MEASURE.

I SEE THE BEAUTY OF YOUR OWN EXPRESSION IN THE WORKMANSHIP OF YOUR HANDS.  THE VAST GALAXIES AND ALL THEREIN.  HEAVENLY HOSTS, ANGELS AND SAINTS MADE PERFECT.

YOU ARE AWESOMELY BEAUTIFUL.

WORDS CANNOT TELL.

YES ___YOU ARE AWESOMELY BEAUTIFUL LORD,  EVEN MY GOD!!!

PROCRASTINATION AND COMPROMISING THE TRUTH

 

               PROCRASTINATION AND COMPROMISING THE TRUTH 

LORD__CARRY ME AWAY BEYOND MYSELF TODAY. THAT PLACE WHERE
HUMAN LOVE CANNOT FLY.
MY LOVE ONLY TRIES TO BE WISE__SENSIBLE AND ENDS UP CALCULATING.
I TRY TO BE CAREFUL AND COMPROMISING__AVOIDING CONFRONTATION,
AND YET AT THE EXPENSE OF DENYING YOUR HOLINESS AND UNCOMPROMISING WORD.

THE TRUE NATURE OF  (YOUR)  LOVE DELIVERS ME FROM THE SUBTLENESS OF PERSONAL AFFECTION.IT DOES NOT HAVE THE AROMA OR TASTE OF DUTY, USEFULNESS, OR REWARD__
NOTHING BEYOND THE FACT THAT I LOVE YOU.

YOU HAVE BEEN CHASTISING ME IN YOUR LOVE__
OVER MY TENDENCY TO PROCRASTINATE IN WHAT I KNOW IS YOUR WORD. CONCERNING SERVICE__   (((AM I OF REAL VALUE?))) ....Am I Real?
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!!!! I AM SO HAPPY!!!! THANK YOU FOR SHOWING ME THIS!!!!___
YOU ARE THE GREAT ((( I AM))) !!!!

THE ENEMY OF MY SOUL IS ALWAYS BRINGING MY THOUGHTS TO DOUBT, SAYING__” AM I?”LORD__ I SEE!   IT’S TIME FOR ME TO COME OUT OF THE DESERT OF THE TRIALS OF WHO I AM__EVEN AS YOU WERE TESTED CONCERNING WHO YOU WERE.

IT IS THE ACCEPTANCE OF WHO WE ARE IN YOU THAT GIVES US THE FAITH AND CONFIDENCE TO TALK THE TALK AND WALK THE WALK OF FAITH.

I SHOULD BE DOING__(((FAITH)))
IN MY THINKING__MY RELATIONSHIPS__MY RESPONSIBILITIES__MY WORSHIP
IN THE SIMPLE, EVERYDAY HUMAN THINGS       THAT LET YOUR TOUCH BE MADE KNOWN__YOUR VOICE__THE WORD BEING MADE ALIVE IN ME.

THIS IS THE EVIDENCE OF MY ABANDONMENT TO YOU__AND MY REST.

NOT MY PERSONAL HOLINESS__CAUGHT IN THE NET OF HOW OTHERS PERCEIVE ME__OR EVEN A MORBID SENSE OF FEAR THAT YOU LORD ARE NOT PLEASED IN WHAT I SAY OR DO.

LET YOUR LOVE FREE ME OF EVER DOUBTING YOUR LOVE IN ANY WAY__

AM I ABANDONED TO YOUR LOVE?__
DO I TRUST FOR YOUR LOVE?__
CAN I FLY ON WINDS OF FAITH, SOARING THE HEIGHTS__WITHOUT THE LEAST THOUGHT OF THE MOTIONS OF WINGS__FEELING THE RUSH OF THE THERMALS LIFTING ME HIGHER, HIGHER STILL?

LORD__LET MY HOPE IN YOU BE PURIFIED__NOT IN THE STRAIN OF PROVING ANYTHING__BUT THE EARNEST DESIRE OF DYING TO MYSELF__NOT IN THE WORK OF DYING__
FOR BY YOUR GRACE,  I AM MORE THAN A CONQUEROR__
BECAUSE OF YOUR GREAT AND MERCIFUL LOVE.

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THE I AM ____HE IS

I CAN REMEMBER AS A SMALL GIRL, LOOKING UP INTO THE SKY AND THINKING, "WHAT ARE THOSE LIGHTS DOING UP THERE?" TO THIS DAY, THE SKY LOOKS FLAT TO ME. NOT DEEP AND DIMENSIONAL. I'VE NEVER SAW THE POINT OF EXPLORING TO THE EXTENT THAT SOME DO. I'M MORE IN AWE OF THEIR DRIVE TO VENTURE INTO OUTER SPACE THAN I AM IN SPACE ITSELF. MAYBE I SHOULD RE FRAZE WHAT I JUST SAID. I AM COMPLETELY IN AWE OF GOD'S CREATION, IN ALL DOMAINS, THE HEAVENS INCLUDED. BUT THE GREATER MYSTERY OF UNCHARTED SPACE THAT I FIND TO BE WORTHY OF EXPLORATION, IS THE HUMAN SOUL. 

WHAT IS IT WE ARE REALLY LOOKING FOR BEYOND THE BOUNDS OF PRECIOUS LIFE ON THIS PLANET? WE'D ONLY INFECT ANOTHER LIKE OUR OWN WITH ALL THE DISREGARD WE HAVE FOR THIS ONE.

THE SKY, HAS NEVER BEEN UP TO ME, THE UNCONQUERED GALAXIES OF THE MIND AND HEART IS UP. THOUGH THERE IS ORDER IN OUTER SPACE, IT IS THE CONTROLLED CHAOS OF SOMETHING THAT WENT REALLY WRONG IN IONS PAST. IT IS ALSO THE BIRTHING GROUND OF GOD THE CREATOR'S DIVINE WORK OF CONCILIATION AND ORDER BEING RESTORED.

EVEN SO, THE FURTHER REACHES OF THE INNER SPACE OF MAN, FAR SUPERSEDE THE EXPANDING SKIES ABOVE US. THE OUTPOSTS OF SPACE ARE FILLED WITH PRINCIPALITIES AND POWERS THAT WERE CAST OUT INTO WHAT I UNDERSTAND TO BE "OUTER DARKNESS". AND ONE DAY, KINGS AND PRIESTS OF THE LORD, ALONG WITH SAINTS MADE PERFECT WILL RULE THESE STRONGHOLDS NOW UNDER SIEGE BY THE CAST OUT god OF THE AIR.

IN A BEGINNING, THE ELOHIM GOD CAME TO SET HIS WORK IN THE MIDST OF THIS FORMLESS AND VOID PLANET THAT WAS A RESULT OF SOME CATASTROPHIC EVENT WHICH CAUSED THE EARTH TO BE CAST FROM IT'S ORIGINAL PLACE AND STATE, INTO THE DARK REGIONS WHERE IT IS NOW.

IT WAS THE FIRST ADAM RACE, WHICH WAS PLANTED IN THE GARDEN OF GOD UPON THE EARTH, THAT WERE CHOSEN AS THE SEED TO RESTORE THE NUMBERLESS HOSTS OF BEINGS THAT WERE A PART OF THE  GREAT CATASTROPHE.

THE ONE RESPONSIBLE FOR ALL THE UNTOLD DAMAGE TO GOD'S ORDER, WAS QUARANTINED ON EARTH, AND IN THE LIVING GOD'S PLAN WAS THE CONCILIATION OF ALL THINGS IN THE END OF THE AGES. CHRIST CAME TO SET UP THE BATTLE LINE, AND HIS BANNER OVER US IS LOVE. SATAN WAS CAST OUT OF THE EARTH, IN WAYS WE ARE NOT AWARE OF WHEN CHRIST WAS CRUCIFIED.  YET WAS THE MIND AND HEART LEFT CORRUPTED, AS WAS THE FLESH AND BLOOD.  THE REAL BATTLE GROUND OF SATAN IS THE HUMAN HEART. 

I DO NOT CLAIM TO KNOW OR UNDERSTAND THE PATIENCE OF THE LIVING GOD. FOR IN THE RESTORATION OF HIS CREATION, HE IS ALWAYS WORKING TO CONCILIATE THE HEART OF MAN, WHICH WAS THE ONE DOMAIN THAT LUCIFER TRIED TO TAKE UNTO HIMSELF, BUT THE ETERNAL CREATOR GOD, IN THE ALPHA AND OMEGA OF HIS BEING HAS FROM THE VERY BEGINNING MADE ALL THINGS SUBJECT TO FUTILITY, BY REASON OF HIS OWN FORE-KNOWLEDGE AND WILL. IT WILL BE ACCOMPLISHED BY THE VICTORIOUS SETTING UP OF HIS KINGDOM IN THE DEEPEST REGIONS OF THE HEARTS OF MEN. ONE SOUL AT A TIME, HOW EVER LONG IT TAKES, IT IS NO TIME AT ALL TO OUR GOD. FOR HE HIMSELF IS THE LIGHT THAT SHINES IN US REVEALING THIS TRUTH. WHEN THE HUMAN HEART AND MIND IS SET FREE THROUGH REDEMPTION OF THE BLOOD______

REDEMPTION OF THE BLOOD? THERE IS POWER IN THE BLOOD. I'VE HEARD SERMONS ON IT, SANG SONGS ABOUT IT, ASKED GOD QUESTIONS ABOUT IT___EXACTLY WHAT DOES IT MEAN TO FIND SALVATION THROUGH THE POWER OF THE SHED BLOOD OF CHRIST.

WELL FIRST OF ALL WE ARE NOT PRIVY TO THE DETAILS OF THE CONFLICT BETWEEN THE SPIRIT OF FATHER GOD AND THE WILLFUL VAIN AND MATTER FORMED CREATURE CALLED LUCIFER WHO WOULD, AND DOES WANT TO SET HIMSELF UP TO BE GOD. YES, GOD OF THE HEAVENS, GOD OF THE EARTH, AND GOD OF THE HUMAN HEART.

HE KNOWS THAT HE CAN NEVER RULE THE HEAVENS AS GOD IF HE DOES NOT RULE THE HEARTS AND MINDS OF MAN FIRST. AFTER ALL, HE CANNOT RULE IN SPIRIT, HE HAS NONE, IT IS DEAD. AND WHEN HE SEES A HEART THAT IS SURRENDERED TO LOVE, AND GOD IS LOVE AND LIFE ETERNAL___ HE WILL DO ALL HE CAN TO SEEK OUT THAT SOUL TO KILL AND DESTROY IT__BECAUSE LOVE IS EVERYTHING THAT LUCIFER IS NOT. NOR IS IT IN HIM TO BE ANYTHING OTHER THAN WHAT HE IS.

IN A BEGINNING, WHAT EVER HE DID TO CAUSE THE DISRUPTION OF THE HEAVENS, WHAT EVER HE DID IN THE GARDEN OF GOD, IT CONGEALED AND EFFECTED THE LIGHT OF SPIRIT IN THE ADAM RACE, WHO FELL INTO THE DARK REGIONS OF THE MIND AND SOUL. THE TRINITY OF GODS IMAGE OF HIM WAS DISRUPTED THROUGH DISOBEDIENCE TO GOD'S WORD, AND THEIR OWN UNDERSTANDING AND INTERPRETATION OF IT, ___ THEY LISTENED TO A STRANGE VOICE AND WAS DECEIVED. THEY COULD NO LONGER SEE AND HEAR SPIRIT, THEY WERE SUDDENLY LOST TO THEMSELVES, AND TO GOD. THEIR SHAME EXPOSED THEM,  THE LIGHT DEPARTED FROM THEM AND TURNED TO BLOOD.   THEREFORE DID THEY APPEAR SEPARATED FROM THE LIGHT THAT FILLED GOD'S GARDEN, AND THEY COULD NOT HIDE.  THEIR FEAR OF GOD EXPOSED THEM. TRUTH NO LONGER REMAINED, IT HAD GONE INTO CAPTIVITY. THEY CAME INTO BONDAGE, SERVING A STRANGE GOD.

THERE IS NO VICTORY, THERE IS NO RULE, THERE IS NO POWER GREATER THAN THAT OF THE SURRENDERED HEART, CLEANSED BY THE SHED BLOOD OF CHRIST.

FLESH AND BLOOD CANNOT ENTER INTO THE KINGDOM OF GOD.

WHAT DOES THAT MEAN?

THIS IS NOT "THUS SAITH THE LORD." BUT TO ME, THE ULTIMATE CHALLENGE THAT LUCIFER PRESENTED TO GOD, WAS,   "SEE, THESE TWO WHO HAVE TAKEN  ON MY IMAGE,  WE'LL SEE JUST HOW LONG YOU REMAIN GOD, OR WHO REALLY HAS THE POWER TO RULE THE WILL. FOR I HAVE WILLED AGAINST YOU, AND YOU HAVE LOST THE WILL OF MANY TO MY ALLEGIANCE.

IT'S NOT A KNEW STORY__THE BIBLE IS FULL OF STORIES WHERE THE HUMAN HEART WAS CHALLENGED TO FORSAKE LOVE FOR VANITIES WILL. BUT LUCIFER'S GREATEST MISTAKE ((( UNDOING ))) WAS__

FROM THE VERY BEGINNING GOD HAD PURPOSE IN THE USING OF LUCIFER___WHO THOUGHT HE WAS TEMPTING THE LORD GOD IN HIS HUMAN VULNERABLENESS. THINKING CHRIST TO BE WEAK. AND PRESUMING THAT CHRIST WAS JUST ANOTHER CREATURE TO BE BROUGHT UNDER HIS POWER AND INFLUENCE.

HE DID NOT COMPREHEND THAT THE FULLNESS OF THE GOD-HEAD DWELT IN GOD'S SON, HIS ONLY PRE-EXISTING, GOD BEGOTTEN SON, BIRTHED OUT OF HIS SPIRIT INTO HUMAN FLESH.

GOD HAD COME TO MEET HIS ARCH ENEMY ON HIS OWN SOIL, AND LUCIFER THINKING ON HIS TERMS.

GOD CAME IN THE PERSON OF HIS SON, TO CHANGE THE CONGEALED LIGHT OF HIS SPIRIT IN THE HEART AND MIND OF THE FALLEN ADAM RACE TO LIVING SPRINGS OF WATER, THAT WOULD WELL UP FROM WITHIN TO THE RESTORED LIFE OF GOD'S SPIRIT, THROUGH THE RESURRECTED NEW LIFE OF HIS FIRST BORN OF MANY BRETHREN, THE LAST ADAM.

THE RESTORATION OF HEARING AND SEEING___THOSE SEEDS THAT HAD LAID DORMANT IN MAN BECAUSE OF THE BONDAGE OF SIN UNTO DEATH.___NOW THROUGH CHRIST JESUS, THE LAW OF THE SPIRIT OF LIFE (( OF WHICH WE HAVE NO CLUE )) HAD AND HAS SUDDENLY COME TO SET MEN FREE FROM THE LAW OF SIN AND DEATH.

IT IS THE SPIRIT THAT GIVES LIFE, THE FLESH COUNTS AS NOTHING, IT BEGINS TO DIE THE DAY IT'S BORN. IT IS THE SPIRIT THAT IS ETERNAL.

IF THE SPIRIT OF GOD THE FATHER, WHO RAISED UP HIS SON JESUS FROM THE DEAD, IS LIVING IN YOU, AS HE HAS RAISED HIM UP FROM THE DEAD, HE WILL ALSO RAISE YOU UP, AND GIVE LIFE TO YOUR MORTAL BODIES THROUGH HIS SPIRIT, WHO LIVES IN YOU.

SO HERE I AM FACING THE FACT THAT IT IS NOT ME BECOMING A SPIRIT BEING WITH ETERNAL LIFE___BUT THE SCRIPTURE SAYS THAT THE POWER OF CHRIST'S RESURRECTION LIFE, WILL BE GIVEN TO MY MORTAL BODY THROUGH HIS SPIRIT LIVING IN ME. CHRIST COME IN FLESH. SOMETHING WONDERFULLY BEYOND MY COMPREHENSION HAS TO CHANGE IN ME, TO CHANGE MY MORTAL BODY.

WELLLLLLLLLLL___THAT'S A HOWDY DO TO ME___AND KINDA A HAIR IN MY BISCUIT. HERE I AM IN MY MORTAL BODY, HAVE ALL THESE INFIRMITIES, FIGHTING DEMONS OF GUILT, DOUBT, UNBELIEF, AND DESPAIR, IN THIS BODY THAT I SAY I HAVE GIVEN OVER TO THE RESURRECTED CHRIST___

LEAN NOT TO YOUR OWN UNDERSTANDING! ?

FAITH, TRUST, SURRENDER! ?

YES AND AMEN! JUST LIKE THE SON OF THE LIVING GOD DID. RELEASING THE WILL, LEARNING BY CHOICE TO SURRENDER TO THE WILL OF HIS FATHER IN THE FACE OF THAT LIAR WHO PERPETUALLY CHALLENGED CHRIST CONCERNING WHO HE WAS.

IT WAS AND IS THE INNER RECESSES OF THE ETERNAL HEART OF GOD, THE ETERNAL WORD, THE ETERNAL SPIRIT, THAT COULD NOT BE DESTROYED. THAT PART OF THE SON WHICH HAD NO BEGINNING OR END___THAT PART WHICH WAS STEADFAST IN THE FAITH, KNOWLEDGE AND LOVE OF SPIRIT.

THE I AM___HE IS!

LOOK TO YOUR HEART, LOOK UP, FOR WHOM THE SON SETS FREE, IS FREE INDEED. CHRIST IN YOU, YOUR HOPE OF GLORY.

MY LORD WHAT A MORNING!

 

MY BREAKFAST EATING COMES FROM A LONG LINE OF BREAKFAST EATERS.
I MEAN THE HEARTY BREAKFAST EATERS.
MAIN MEAL OF THE DAY EATERS.
UP AND AT IT...RUBBIN YOUR HANDS TOGETHER, CAN'T WAIT TO SIT DOWN...AND CHOW DOWN EATERS.
NOW THAT NEST IS EMPTY AND IT'S JUST DAD AND I...IT'S REALLY NOT THE SAME. CUZ THAT KIND A EATEN IS BEST DONE WITH COMPANY...AND JOYFUL CHATTER AROUND THE TABLE.
BUT TODAY THE LORD SENT A GIFT. OUR OLDEST SON DROPPED BY, FROM HIS BUSY LIFE AND BROUGHT HIS LITTLE SCHNAUZER ANNIE WITH HIM. THERE HE STOOD IN THE COLD, THE BOTH OF THEM, SAYING MOM, I MISS YOUR GOOD BREAKFASTS, HAVE YOU FIXED YOURS YET?
WHAT A WONDERFUL SURPRISE! WHAT A BLESSED GIFT! WHAT A WONDERFUL, WAY TO START THE DAY...A GOOD BREAKFAST AND JOYFUL CHATTER AROUND THE TABLE.
GOTTA GO...THEY'RE RUBBIN THEIR HANDS TOGETHER READY TO CHOW DOWN A GOOD BREAKFAST.
AND ME JUST WATCHIN WITH A SMILE ON MY FACE FOR THIS NOW MOMENT, GOD'S GIFT FOR THIS DAY...WHAT A BLESSING!

WHEN I DON'T LOVE__I DIE...I DIE

BECAUSE YOU LOVE ME...I LOVE...BECAUSE YOU SPEAK TO ME...I LOVE

I HAVE FELT YOUR HOLY SPIRIT FLY WITHIN MY HEART AND COO THE SOFT MURMURING SOUND OF LOVE...THE SOUND OF GRACE AND PEACE AND REST.HOW CAN I NOT LOVE YOU, MY LOVE

YOUR LOVE HAS COME TO REACH OUT TO ALL WHO WILL TO LOVE
YOUR LOVE HAS COME TO LIFT THE BROKEN OF BODY, MIND AND SPIRIT...

I HAVE BEEN FORGIVEN OF SO MUCH...AND YOUR LOVE'S MERCY REACHES OUT TO ME EVERY MOMENT OF MY LIFE...FORGIVING, FORGETTING, SUSTAINING, PREPARING, STRENGTHENING, KEEPING...ALL AND MORE IN THE POWER OF YOUR LOVE.

I CAN DO NOTHING BUT LOVE YOU...FOR YOU HAVE DRAWN ME TO YOUR BOSOM AND I FEEL YOUR LOVE PERMEATE MY VERY BEING...

I AM YOURS, AND YOU ARE MINE...MY LOVE... IT IS FOR THIS REASON THAT I MUST LOVE OR DIE.LORD, WHEN I FEEL LIKE I DON'T LOVE...I DIE...I DIE
HAVE MERCY ON MY SOUL FOR DOUBTING YOUR LOVE IN ME, FOR LOOKING TO MYSELF TO GIVE LOVE...
I AM LOST WITHOUT YOUR LOVE...AND WHEN YOU DRAW ME NEAR, GENTLY CALLING MY NAME, I CAN DO NOTHING BUT COME...FOR MY SOUL KNOWS YOUR LOVE...IT HAS DELIVERED ME FROM THE POWER OF SIN AND DEATH...IT COMFORTS MY SOUL AND BRINGS JOY UNSPEAKABLE AND FULL OF GLORY...
THANK YOU FOR THE PAIN OF NOT KNOWING OR UNDERSTANDING...FOR IT HAS PRESSED ME INTO YOUR ARMS AGAIN...
FORGIVE ME, FORGIVE ME ..LOVER OF MY SOUL, MY BELOVED ONE...MY GOD

~Joy~

LORD YOU ARE MY SONG

LORD__ONLY YOU CAN HEAR THE SOUND OF MY HEART AND IT'S MELODY OF LOVE
I DON'T EVEN HEAR THE SOUND OF IT
BUT I FEEL THE VIBRATION OF IT'S MELODY
MY MOUTH TRIMBLES WITH THE RELEASING OF PRAISE, FROM THE ACHE OF IT
GROANINGS AND SIGHS WITHOUT WORDS
LIKE A FLAME THAT LIGHTENS MY WAY
LIKE WINGS THAT TAKE ME ON FLIGHTS TO RHELMS I ONLY DREAM ABOUT, HOPE FOR AND BELIEVE ONE DAY WILL LEAD ME HOME
IT IS A SONG THAT IS NEW EVERY DAY
LORD YOU ARE MY SONG IN THIS NOW MOMENT OF MY LIFE
WITH EVERY BREATH I TAKE, EVERY THOUGHT, EVERY DESIRE, I LONG TO SING THE SONG THAT ONLY MY HEART KNOWS
IT IS LOVE THAT SINGS THE MELODY
LORD YOU ARE MY SONG