Friday, December 3, 2010
begotten of God
First born of heaven
now earth He must trod
Come to a manger
From glories unknown
Come down to man
from His Father's own throne
Meek now, and lowly
this Christ child did lay
into the night, to bring us "The Day"
Angels announced Him
and pointed to way
A star shined upon Him
"It's written", they say
Now in my life time
I hear a clear Word
One from the ages to ages is heard.
If you can recieve it,
have ears that can hear
the "Ancient of Days"
is about to appear.
Come down from Glory
to rule and to reign
Come once again to
establish His name
"I Am, that I AM
Begotten that's true,
I Am, that I Am
To make all things new
To baptize with fire,
to winnow the wheat
To give those that kneel
and bow at my feet
Who turn from rebellion
in their will and way,
surrendered in heart
to all that I say
Oh sheep lost and dying,
look now and see
All that you search for
will be found in Me.
Trust me, believe me
Give me your hand
Be still now, and quiet,
I'll help you stand
My hope and my promise
is eternal, it's true
It's yours for the asking
I'm waiting for you
The touch of the "Firstborn"
is near at hand
Choose if you will, choose if you can.
Monday, November 15, 2010
Below is an e-mail a precious friend sent me...that says it all....
Sunday, November 14, 2010
For several weeks the Holy Spirit had been dealing with me about my prayer life (He still is)... I'd pace the floor at night with thoughts that defeated me before I ever knelt down...
In the earliest of the morning hours, I once again found myself pacing...crying out...Lord, I come...I do not seem to understand how to come anymore...is it sin in my life?...Help me.
I knelt down, half expecting an answer...racing thoughts once again filled my head...analyzing, condemning, reasoning with logic...all mixed with trying to get past my own needs and the obvious need to know how to intercede...
Until I heard my name being oh so sweetly whispered, "Joy" I had an instant conscious sense of the Lord's presence...that familiar and unspeakable visit that only He makes, right on time, full of mercy and grace...
"Joy, Look up...focus...I'm right here with you...focus...be still."
With the eyes that can see only those things that are of the Spirit...I saw Him...I saw Love...patience, kindness, long suffering and so much more in His gentle smile.
"I've been here all the while, waiting for you to just focus on the fact that I'm here...waiting for you to be still...Today I have given you a key that will open up doors to peace and rest...So many times I have heard you say, "there's something missing".....and I say to you, it has been your bondage to self made goals, works, and contemplation of imagination."
"Surrender your thoughts to me...your reasoning...your manipulating control of mind that wants to make a way where there seems to be none...I Am the Way...I Am the Truth...I Am the Life...these three are but one to you, nothing else matters...Come to me, sit with me for awhile, and let us reason together, let this be the beginning of your ministry unto Me, and my revelation to you."
Friday, November 12, 2010
My own heart is grieved at the apathy of my feeling any deep conscious and experiential identification with their horrific and solemn sacrifice...
I've never felt such helpless-ness like this before...almost a vulnerable hypocrisy, exposed to waves washing me to a transparency, leaving me uneasy in my comfortable-ness as a Christian...
Lord...I'm ashamed of my total lack of comprehension...true compassion and intercession on my brethren's behalf...my flesh knows nothing of the reality of such suffering...
I am obviously callous, indifferent, apathetic and pathetic concerning the complete surrender of my life to your interceding presence in me....
I confess to the morbidity of my confession...to the empty and clueless vessel that I am...
Help me....precious and wonderful Savior....Help me...
Explode within my heart..."Let there be Light"....move upon the voidness of my soul, Breath of God, Blessed Holy Spirit Word.
Let me kneel beside your interceding heart and "KNOW" with every fiber of my being, what great Love has come to deliver us from this sinful and cruel world, in total victory and promise of your eternal keeping, unto that Day...
Day Star rise within me, Shine in the darkness...an exceeding great Light...
You are Father, Lord, blessed and eternal Holy Spirit...my God...allowed be Your Name...I surrender to your kingdom...let it rule in me, in the power of your might, by your Word and your Holy Spirit...even according to your will and good pleasure...let it be done...
Let the love of the brethren be your banner over me with love.
Not just in word or deed...but in the strength of your faith, your wisdom, your fellowship...
Let me truly embrace those who face the reality of persecution by those who do not know the meaning of Love...who are zealous without knowledge...
They are just flesh and blood...tools of a more cruel and dark force of unseen principalities and powers that would destroy God's kingdom and his host's...
Fit me for battle Lord...in heart, in soul and in mind...
For yours is the kingdom and the power and the glory forever...Amen
Tuesday, November 2, 2010
Lord...I want to thank you that you do not put bandages on broken hearts...that you have promised to heal the broken hearted.
I still remember when my grand-mother passed away...and they said she died of a broken heart...How could someone who loved you with all their heart, die of a broken heart?
I never really understood...and for awhile, I didn't even want to understand...it was cruel to make my grandma suffer that way, to die that way...
Until I learned that, you my Lord, died of a broken heart...
that our hearts might be healed of their broken-ness...that our lives might be healed of the helpless and hopeless abandon to a fate we feel has absolute power over our destinies, our hopes and dreams...the desires of our heart.
Numberless people have suffered broken-ness in millions of ways...libraries and instituions have volumes of books that offer council and words of wisdom, even the Bible falls short of it's promises to those who walk in blindness and unbelief, in pride and self-centeredness....These bandages are helps to the broken hearted....but they will not heal it....
There's only One Way to heal a broken heart...and that is the Way of Love...the Light of Love...the Word of Love...the Spirit of Love...the Life of Love that heals to the uttermost...renews and strengthens with the Word of promise, the word of faith, the word of hope...that "ALL THINGS WORK TOGETHER FOR GOOD TO THEM THAT LOVE GOD."...
LORD, ONLY YOU CAN HEAL A BROKEN HEART.
Saturday, October 23, 2010
"Arise therefore, go down and go with them, doubting nothing; for I have sent them" (Acts 10:20, NKJV).
Saturday, October 9, 2010
Lord...you not only see...you feel the heart of this precious one...you've tried before to comfort them...but they embrace their suffering as a means of punishing themselves for what they think they cannot undue or fix.....they've lost hope for change...for answers...
Lord...send your Holy Spirit to reveal who you are...search out their heart in the Light of your love...expose the unseen enemies of their soul, and the cruel warfare that comes against this one to destroy them...
Let them brake free from this bondage of lies and deception...take their burden upon you...speak your Word to their heart, giving them ears to hear...and let your still small voice reverberate within them..."I AM come, that you might have Life...and have it more abundantly...turn from your unbelief, and sin no more."
Dear one, go and open the window of your heart by faith...see the open way...the only way to peace and love and life.....cast away your fears and self-condemnation...He has come...he is waiting....his arms are open wide...come just as you are...for he's come to you just as you are....longing to hold you as his very own....
Wednesday, September 29, 2010
"Put on the New Man, created in God's own Righteousness and true Holiness" (Ephesians 4:24).
More and more lately...I've had the sense of my inner man as separate from my physical being...My flesh is so burdened down with the physical and emotional ties to life...and the demands that are a part of just mundane everyday living can be exhausting...
The enemy of our soul uses the flesh to distract and destroy our conscious and most desperate needs of our spirit man...The enemy would blind us to truth, deafen our ears to truth...give us tastes of the pleasures of sin to deaden our taste for The Word of God.
So we are either walking in our flesh, according to the consciousness and dictates of our flesh...or we are walking in (with) the HOLY SPIRIT...in and with the conscious mind of Christ...seeing (having knowledge and wisdom) what is His will and purpose...hearing what is His word to us...and following Him obediently in truth and righteousness.
The flesh man can only proselytize itself...acting out, struggling in one's own strength, making commitments that usually fail, and just plain tiring of the repetitious routine of a lifeless commitment to vanity.
I love the way a Christian brother explains it...quoting
"Christianity is not memorizing certain doctrines or disseminating a systematic theology or having people repeat a so-called "Sinner's Prayer". Christianity is becoming one with a God-Man! You can have all the other in its proper place, but for too long that "other" has been offered as Christianity. And so people touch our beliefs, our doctrines, our religion, our theology, our zeal, but they do not touch a Living Christ."
We must come to learn that the New Man is the workmanship of God's own hands...It is the New Creation man...Christ becoming our righteousness and holiness. The Holy Spirit helping us to do what is impossible for flesh and blood to do...and what intellect fails to do also.
To be taught about faith in God according to what might seem logical to our own thinking or doctrine...our own interpretation...isn't always the mind of Christ...for His thoughts are not ours, and his ways are not always ours either.
The New Man becomes conscious of the right use of his will, his responsibility is to the Word that speaks within him...and the love relationship that is developing from the revelation of the person of Christ Jesus and the desire of knowing him even more...it is a decreasing of the flesh life, and the increasing of becoming one with Christ
Again, as our brother suggests... "people touch our beliefs, our doctrines, our religion, our theology, our zeal, but they do not touch a Living Christ."
I would declare also, that all is vanity and leads to death...except and encounter with the Living God, and the New Birth into Spiritual Life that only He can accomplish...he has made a way where there was no way...His promises are true...He is the Way and the Truth...
Where ever you are right now...what ever you are doing....quit trying to be your best as a human being....and become a New Man...who will be the best man...an over-comer of the endless struggle to be at peace with the lost kingdom of Self.....
Flesh and blood will not inherit the Kingdom of God..."Put on the New Man, created in God's own righteousness and true holiness." Ephesians 4:24
I wish you His Love, his peace, his joy and the Life more abundant and free........jOY
Monday, September 20, 2010
BECAUSE YOU LOVE ME...I LOVE...BECAUSE YOU SPEAK TO ME...I LOVE
I HAVE FELT YOUR HOLY SPIRIT FLY WITHIN MY HEART AND COO THE SOFT MURMURING SOUND OF LOVE...THE SOUND OF GRACE AND PEACE AND REST.
HOW CAN I NOT LOVE YOU, MY LOVE
YOUR LOVE HAS COME TO REACH OUT TO ALL WHO WILL TO LOVE
YOUR LOVE HAS COME TO LIFT THE BROKEN OF BODY, MIND AND SPIRIT...
I HAVE BEEN FORGIVEN OF SO MUCH...AND YOUR LOVE'S MERCY REACHES OUT TO ME EVERY MOMENT OF MY LIFE...FORGIVING, FORGETTING, SUSTAINING, PREPARING, STRENGTHENING, KEEPING...ALL AND MORE IN THE POWER OF YOUR LOVE.
I CAN DO NOTHING BUT LOVE YOU...FOR YOU HAVE DRAWN ME TO YOUR BOSOM AND I FEEL YOUR LOVE PERMEATE MY VERY BEING...
I AM YOURS, AND YOU ARE MINE...MY LOVE... IT IS FOR THIS REASON THAT I MUST LOVE OR DIE.
LORD, WHEN I FEEL LIKE I DON'T LOVE...I DIE...I DIE
HAVE MERCY ON MY SOUL FOR DOUBTING YOUR LOVE IN ME, FOR LOOKING TO MYSELF TO GIVE LOVE...
I AM LOST WITHOUT YOUR LOVE...AND WHEN YOU DRAW ME NEAR, GENTLY CALLING MY NAME, I CAN DO NOTHING BUT COME...FOR MY SOUL KNOWS YOUR LOVE...IT HAS DELIVERED ME FROM THE POWER OF SIN AND DEATH...IT COMFORTS MY SOUL AND BRINGS JOY UNSPEAKABLE AND FULL OF GLORY...
THANK YOU FOR THE PAIN OF NOT KNOWING OR UNDERSTANDING...FOR IT HAS PRESSED ME INTO YOUR ARMS AGAIN...
FORGIVE ME, FORGIVE ME ..LOVER OF MY SOUL, MY BELOVED ONE...MY GOD
Wednesday, August 4, 2010
Lord: Teach me the REALITY of watching and praying
my spirit is willing, but my flesh is so weak...even as your Word warns...if I do not learn this lesson...I WILL FALL INTO TEMPTATION. Matthew 26:41
I know that it is only as I come into your presence...beholding your face...being still and waiting upon your Word...that I will know the perfect will of your mind...and feel the purpose of your Spirit...You are revealed...
Lord, I confess that I have not come to my Gethsemane...to get up and come kneel at your side and KNOW the battle and conflict of a prayer warrior...to be victorious in prayer.
I have not been bloodied with the sweat of such warfare...but I come asking that you would make me ready...prepare me Lord...use me. I know that my battle is not with flesh and blood...Dark forces, principalities and powers of the unseen world are my enemies...Spirit of God come upon me for battle...
I fear to take one step further without you...without your favor Lord...without your awesome power and Your very Life manifest in me...for these forces do not fear man...they answer to no man's name...there is no authority over them in the flesh...
I wait to do whatever is required of me Lord....to stand in the gap....let your faith be my own, let your will be my own...let your strength and power be my own....I lift up the cup of my trembling that I have feared was impossible to drink...
You have come to partake of it with me...you will walk with me through the Fire...You will consume the dross and I shall be your refined vessel....
Let these words of my mouth be witness to the desires of my heart...and the covenant I make with you this day...................Pillar Jewel 09/04/10
Tuesday, July 27, 2010
These scriptures are no less a promise to us today....and, oh, how much more we need His Power, the power of his Holy Spirit, to become his sons in the anointed administering of his Work and Will in the manifesting of his Life and Light in a crooked and perverse generation...
In the very best of us...there is no redeeming power of the soul...there is no hope beyond the grave...Flesh and blood will not enter in to His Kingdom...He is a Holy God...he alone will make of us a new creation through Christ Jesus...that same resurrection power that raised Jesus from the dead, will raise us...blood bought, cleansed of mortal corruption and changed in the twinkling of an eye...
It is His consuming fire, that removes the corruptible waste of our lives and fills us with his Holy Spirit, establishing his kingdom in our hearts, making us to inherit those things that pertain to that kingdom, in all righteousness.
"The things of earth become strangely dim, in the light of his glory and grace." How many times I have sang that song, and didn't have a clue.
I've played church...christian...moral example...like I did playing house when I was a girl...I had many an example to follow, both bad and good...I chose the good...and never have been able to victoriously bring under control and triumph over the weaknesses of my flesh...I had all kinds of zeal...sincere desire...hope...and faith that it would come...I knew that it was only found in Christ....But I was trying to bring it about by my own effort....
After all I had been baptized with water...confessed my sins...was living the good Christian life...told others of the good news of the Gospel of Christ....but beyond that....I was powerless to live in the Power of that Gospel, from the inside out...Zeal, without knowledge is not Christ in me, administering His Kingdom through me...and the me of me...as dead as He has come ALIVE! in me...
It is the assimilation of my will into His...not to a dictator God...but to a Glorious King who rules and reigns in unfeigned love, justice, peace and righteousness...
I am His...and He is mine...and His Banner over me is LOVE.
I confess him as...King of Kings...Lord of Lords...Mighty, Wonderful, All Powerful...Holy and Just...Holy and Righteous is he...and though he slay me...yet will I serve Him...and though my heart condemn me...He alone is faithful and true....He will not deny Himself............
Friday, July 23, 2010
LORD...even my God...You are the Way that is ever before me...
I am hemmed in on every side, yet your life and light draw me onward through this valley of the shadows of death. Your Living Waters refresh my soul...the Light of your Presence restores my soul, and I am filled with faith and hope...with confidence and covenant to press on toward the mark of your calling...For I
have heard the sound of your voice, calling in the wilderness...
It is "Genesis" to my soul...and it is good. Your Holy Spirit
moves upon the waters of my life, and calls me forth...
Walk with me Lord...though shadows come, and midnight falls...You are the Light of my salvation...I will Wait for the
touch of your strong hand to lead me in the Way I should go...
Be praised and glorified forever and always.
Wednesday, July 7, 2010
From the heart of Chip Brogden
“And when the servant of [Elisha] was risen early, and gone forth, behold, an host compassed the city both with horses and chariots. And his servant said unto him, ‘Alas, my master! How shall we do?’ And he answered, ‘Fear not: for they that be with us are more than they that be with them’. And Elisha prayed, and said, ‘Lord, I pray thee, open his eyes, that he may see’. And the Lord opened the eyes of the young man; and he saw: and, behold, the mountain was full of horses and chariots of fire round about Elisha” (II Kings 6:15-17).
“Ye are of God, little children, and have overcome them: because greater is He that is in you, than he that is in the world” (I John 4:4).
We look at the world and we see many things which hinder and distract. We look at the Church and we see many things which disturb us. We look at our own circumstances and become frightened, depressed, and anxious. We see the enemy coming to kill, steal, and destroy. We see angels of light presenting themselves as the servants of the Lord when they are, in fact, messengers of satan. We see many false visions, many false words, many false teachers and teachings. Alas! What can we do about it all?
From our point of view, these things seem like huge issues. It takes a considerable amount of effort to stand against these things. At times it seems we are sinking under the weight of so many burdens and things coming against us. We wonder if perhaps we will be completely swallowed up and overwhelmed by it all. When we look at the facts of the situation it does appear that we are hopelessly outnumbered and surrounded.HOW SHALL WE OVERCOME?
There is a secret to overcoming, and the secret is seeing. If we can only see, then we will overcome. Living follows seeing. We cannot live as overcomers until we see it. But once we see it, living it becomes natural. Doing follows being.
The problem is not “out there”. The issue is not the great host which has surrounded us. We would like to make that the issue, but the size of the army is irrelevant. I do not have to know what the enemy is doing in your life, because it does not matter. I only have to know what you see. When you look out from where you are, what do you see? If you see correctly, then nothing can defeat you. If you do not see correctly, the tiniest thing will quickly subdue you. The difference between victory and defeat is not in what the devil is doing or the direction this world is going, but in what we see when we look.
Most people look out and see themselves surrounded by an enemy. That is why they live their lives in desperation and fear of what may happen next. They see the devil everywhere they look. They are full of stories about what the devil is doing to them (or what he might be doing). But the overcomers look around them and see something different. They do not see as other people see. That is why they overcome.
To be an overcomer does not mean that we deny the existence of the enemy. We are not going to overcome by pretending we are not really surrounded. Denying the existence of the adversary will not make him disappear. We acknowledge and admit that there is a real enemy, a real spirit of Antichrist, that is out to destroy the Remnant and hinder the Testimony of Jesus. We also acknowledge and admit that more often than not, this spirit of Antichrist seems to get the advantage over us.
Even so, the issue is not the enemy. We may look at the enemy, study him, and build an entire movement around different ways to fight him. We can write books and hold seminars on “spiritual warfare”. But when we look out from the mountain, what do we really see? Here is the difference between those who overcome and those who are defeated: it is not in their ability to fight, but in their ability to SEE, and this seeing is not of themselves, but is of God.OVERCOMERS HAVE HAD THEIR EYES OPENED
Now Elisha’s servant looks out, sees a great host about to attack them, and cries out, “Alas! How shall we do?” Elisha looks out, sees a great host about to attack them, and says, “Fear not.” What a study of contrasts. Everywhere it seems people are crying, “Alas, alas, what shall we do, where shall we go, what’s to become of us”, etc. etc. Where are the ones who can say, “Fear not”?
I hope you will understand that the problem OUT THERE did not change. Both men faced the same army, both men faced the same circumstance, but one man said, “Alas!” and one man said, “Fear not.”
How is it that two people, looking at the exact same situation, can reach two completely different conclusions? The difference is in what they saw when they looked.
Some people become upset with me because they think I make it sound so “easy”. “But you don’t understand what I’m going through…” Brothers and sisters, maybe no one can understand what you are going through, and you may never understand what I am going through, but that does not matter. What matters is whether or not our eyes are opened. We should not spend time studying the problem when the Solution is right in front of us.
I can offer you nothing more than what Elisha offered, and that is, clarity of vision. “Lord, open his eyes that he may see.” Now the difference is just here: some people have had their eyes opened to see, and some people have not. It is quite easy to tell the difference. The first group is saying, “Alas!” while the second group is saying, “Fear not.” Now that is not a condemnation or a criticism, just a statement of fact. All of us are blind until someone prays, “Lord, open their eyes”. One day we will ALL see, and we look forward to that day when everything is made clear.
What must we do? How long does it take? It is not a question of spiritual growth, maturity, wisdom, or gifting. Elisha’s servant did not gradually begin to see more clearly. He did not study the situation for many months and finally hit upon the truth. No, one moment his eyes were closed, and the next moment they were opened. Either your eyes have been opened or they have not. If they are open then you can pray for the Lord to open the eyes of others. If they are closed, you can pray to have your own eyes opened.
People sometimes ask me what they have to do to obtain this great revelation of Christ. They think it is God’s way of rewarding us for a lot of hard work. Nothing could be further from the truth. To have one’s eyes opened is simply an act of grace, and God alone can do it, and will do it, if we will only ask Him. At the risk of making it sound “too easy”, I dare not make it any more difficult than that!
When the servant’s eyes were opened, he saw what Elisha saw. When Elisha said, “The ones with us are greater than the ones with them” it must have sounded like lunacy. It cannot be understood with words alone: the eyes must be opened. If words were enough then Elisha would not have prayed for the eyes to be opened. We should spend less time trying to understand “words” and more time praying for God to open our eyes. When our eyes are opened, then the words will make sense. Until then, words are like hieroglyphics – we know there is something significant there, but we cannot understand what it means.
Thirty seconds of seeing is worth thirty years of studying and listening to teachers. Five words of revelation are worth more than ten thousand words gathered from flesh-and-blood.
Someone asked me if I know “everything”. The answer is no, but I have seen enough to know what I am talking about. Testimony follows revelation, and the testimony consists of what we have seen and heard, not what we “think” we know, but what we KNOW we know.
It is the illumination of the heart that brings forth the knowing. It’s when we finally “get it” and we can say, “Oh, NOW I see it!” We do not mean, of course, that we actually had a vision, but we mean that what was previously hidden from us has now been made known to us. This is not reserved for apostles, prophets, evangelists, pastors, and teachers. The Holy Spirit leads every disciple into “all truth” (John 16:13,14).
Elisha did not argue with his servant, or try to convince him at all. He just prayed for God to open his eyes. What a relief it is to know that it is not my duty to “defend the faith” or convince everyone of what I know to be true. I can just pray for their eyes to be opened, and God will reveal. It is so much better that way!THE WEAPONS OF OUR WARFARE
I want us to see that in this particular instance Elisha did not pray for protection. He did not pray for victory. He did not ask God to supply him with an arsenal of weapons. Why not? Because he saw that he was already surrounded by the chariots of fire and the hosts of heaven. When the victory is ours already we do not have to pray for victory. That would be like trying to enter into a room in which we are already sitting. No, if victory is mine then all I need is to have my eyes opened to it. If I have already OBTAINED it, I do not have to ATTAIN it.
How would our lives and our individual testimonies be different if we really saw into the heavenlies? Do you think it would change our words? Do you think it would change our actions? Do you think it would change our thoughts? Do you think it would have an effect on our surroundings?
Do you see yourself seated with Christ in the heavenlies (Ephesians 2:6)? Paul saw it, and prayed the Ephesians would see it. When the Lord showed me that I was raised together with Christ and was made to sit (past tense) in the heavenly places with Christ, do you think it changed the way I saw the world? Absolutely! No more was I looking at things from “ground level”, but from the heavenly realm. Things look decidedly different when viewed from above.
Elijah saw differently, and so he thought, spoke, and behaved differently. So often we try to adopt a certain way of thinking, speaking, and acting in hopes of becoming victorious. If this is your intention then you are already defeated. If victory lies in something you must do then you will never be able to do enough. “Acting spiritual” does not produce victory, for victory is not what I do or do not do: Victory is Christ.GREATER IS HE THAT IS WITHIN YOU
We who are the Lord’s Body are told, “Greater is He that is within you, than he that is in the world.” This is practically the same thing Elisha said to his servant: “The ones that be with us are greater than the ones that be with them.”
The situation is the same. The apostle John says a great deal about Antichrist, false doctrines, and false teachers. He sees the Church is surrounded by a great host of wolves who want to gain access to the flock and tear them to pieces. But he also sees what Elisha sees, that is, the One within us is greater than the one in the world.
John declares that no matter what comes against us, the One within us is Greater. It does not matter what you feel like, what you see, what you hear, what people say, or what the devil does. It does not matter if Lazarus is dead for four days and is beginning to stink. It does not matter if the girl dies before Jesus can get there. It does not matter if the waves are about to capsize the boat. It does not matter if Paul is stoned and left for dead. Lazarus will be raised, the girl will be brought back to life, and the storm will be silenced, and Paul will preach again.
The Greater is always Greater, and the Lesser is always Lesser. We only have a problem when see everything else as “greater” and see Christ as “lesser”. Remember, the difference between “Alas!” and “Fear not!” is in having our eyes opened. When you look, what do you see? May the Lord open our eyes to see Him as He is!
Saturday, June 19, 2010
My greatest fear is that of failing to have done all You required and then stand...steadfast and unmoved...
Thank you that the minister took the opportunity to confess your name before those who refuse to acknowledge it...
Their attacks were like vipers, come out of the fire...You were my defence and comfort...you delivered me from their lies...you are my confidence in Truth...they know not what they do...I do not hold anything against them...I too, am a sinner saved by grace...
I commit this day and my loved one into Your loving and merciful hands...discipline me, make me to see those things where I must ask for forgiveness, humble me in your presence, thank you for calling me to be a part of your family, for giving me your name...may I walk worthy of it. Amen
Tuesday, June 15, 2010
Thursday, June 10, 2010
Lord...do you feel my pain?...There's a part of me that KNOWS that you do...and there's a part of me that is standing here crying out your name...Jesus, Jesus, Jesus...hear my cry.
I have come to see that there is no depth in the walk I've been walking...It is because of my simple and uncircumstantial life Lord,,,and now I've stepped off and into deep waters where there is no footing...the current of the unforeseen has caught me and would pull me under, along with others who have suffered in the midst of this same fate....
I have known only light afflictions in comparison to this trial...I have been at ease and comfort, not knowing it...there is no depth in me... You my Lord were a man of sorrows and familiar with grief...You have said that, "it is better to agree with the Word knowing that we cannot enter Your Kingdom except through much tribulation...and that if we (I) want to reign with You...then I must suffer with You...
Lord...tell me...how do I tell these devastated and hurting souls how to surrender to more pain...how do I tell them that they must enter in to the straight gate, the narrow gate, when they are already being pressed to the uttermost...?
I do not want to tell them anything that would compromise Your Truth, that would compromise your Holiness, your sacrifice, your grace...I stand back and I am frozen and helpless to speak....HELP ME LORD! HELP ME!
Beloved of my soul...give me depth, and wisdom and the compassion and understanding that leads to Your Life, Eternal Life....make me a soul winner...a laborer in Your Harvest Fields...
Holy Spirit, reveal Christ, in all of this...that I and this family may come to know You in the power of Your Resurrection....that we might in turn declare your wondrous works and the heights and depths of Your Love.
Establish in me the promises of Your Word...1 Peter 2:9
Let us drink from your eternal springs, and be renewed...may we sing your high praises, even a sacrifice of praise...here in the depths, where there is no footing...bear us up in Your Faith...commanding this storm, "Peace, be still".......and I will rejoice with thanksgiving and in the joy of my salvation, and the salvation of my household, and Your household Lord....this I ask and pray, in Your Holy and Trustworthy name...amen and amen..........
Thursday, May 27, 2010
THIS MORNING AS I WAS TAKING MY MORNING WALK...THE LORD, IN HIS USUAL WAY, HAS TO GET THROUGH TO ME BY COMPARING SOMETHING IN THE NATURAL TO THE SPIRITUAL.
I HAD A SMALL PEBBLE IN MY SHOE THAT WAS MAKING IT VERY PAINFUL TO WALK. I STOPPED SEVERAL TIMES TO TAP MY FOOT, TRYING TO SHAKE IT DOWN OUT OF THE WAY, UNTIL I COULD GET HOME AND DISPOSE OF IT.
BECAUSE I WAS WALKING THE DOG, AND THERE WASN'T ANYWHERE THAT I COULD STOP AND REMOVE MY SHOE, (AT LEAST THAT WAS MY EXCUSE) I CONTINUED ON TRYING TO IGNORE THE OBVIOUS IRRITATION.
I'VE BEEN ASKING THE LORD TO GIVE ME HIS INTERCEDING HEART...WHEN YOU ARE NEARLY SHUT AWAY WITH HIM...AND NOT OUT IN THE WORLD, YOU FEEL YOU ARE NOT IN TOUCH WITH IT'S PAIN AS YOU COULD BE...AND GOD FORGIVE ME...YOU GET INSENSITIVE TO THE NEEDS OF OTHERS.
THIS IS WHAT I THOUGHT WAS KEEPING ME FROM RECEIVING AN ANSWER TO THIS PRAYER...
THIS IS THE PICTURE THAT HOLY SPIRIT REVEALED IN MY MIND CONCERNING THIS...
"JOY...LISTEN! YOU PREPARED FOR THIS WALK, BY PUTTING ON YOUR SHOES...YOU DID NOT LOOK INSIDE TO SEE IF THERE WAS ANYTHING THAT COULD HINDER YOUR WALK. THE SMALLEST STONE CAN HINDER YOUR WALK WITH ME. LOOK INSIDE! LOOK INSIDE!
YES, I SAID THAT YOU COULD COME BOLDLY BEFORE MY THRONE...IN THIS I WILL COMMAND YOU TO REMOVE YOUR SHOES, FOR YOU WILL WALK ON HOLY GROUND...EVEN SO...TO WALK WITH ME, TO INTERCEDE WITH ME...YOU MUST LOOK FOR AND REMOVE THE STONES THAT MAY BE HIDING IN YOUR HEART.
YOU HAVE IGNORED THE STONE IN YOUR HEART, THINKING TO REMOVE IT LATER...
REMOVE IT NOW!....REMOVE IT NOW....STOP WHAT YOU ARE DOING, AND REMOVE IT NOW!
THEN COME AND FEEL THE PAIN OF A BROKEN AND CONTRITE HEART...THAT WHICH IS MY OWN HEART THAT INTERCEDES IN YOUR BEHALF...AND THAT FOR THE WHOLE WORLD...
Wednesday, May 26, 2010
Lord, these two pictures struck my heart in a strange way this evening...the first one made me feel lost and swallowed up...like I feel in this world most of the time...I see people full of life and comfortable in their skin...they communicate well with others and are very knowledgeable...some aren't even Christians...and here I am some particle of dust in the unimaginable and measure-less expanses of human life...an empty brain...no purpose...no aspirations...just the endless longing of the your green pastures, your quiet waters of peace.
Today, we stopped for a quick burger...and I could hardly stand the noise and chatter...it was garbled and irritating...getting on the internet and seeing the endless and numberless attempts at sharing testimonies (and my own) personal relationship with you...their convictions, their interpretations...on and on...works, works, works...
"Restore my soul Lord"...hear my cry...Break me, crush me in your hand and make me into that vessel that once received Your Holy Word, that was filled with Your Holy Spirit Word...that Word that was poured out and running over...bring me to that secret place, in the deeps of my heart...come sanctuary in me, be my dwelling place...I have nothing else to say...Let my only words, be your very own...words of Life and Love and Grace...
I cannot live, if you do not Come my Lord...I am worthless without you...I love you, with such pitiful love...but it is all that I have...I give you all that I have...Be my vision, my revelation, my one desire....Bless everyone and anyone who hears what I am saying and is crying out to you for the answer to this same prayer, in Your Holy Name......jOY
Sunday, May 23, 2010
"ARISE, AWAKE!...AWAKE!...COME AWAY MY BELOVED, NOW IS THE TIME TO COME AWAY...COME NEAR TO ME, EVEN INTO MY ARMS. LISTEN, LISTEN, AND YOU WILL HEAR MY VERY HEART BEAT. DO YOU FEEL MY TEARS FALLING UPON YOUR FLESH...UPON YOUR FLESH?...I HAVE TOLD YOU THAT FLESH AND BLOOD WILL NOT INHERIT MY KINGDOM... I WANT YOU TO BE FLESH OF MY FLESH AND BONE OF MY BONE...I WANT YOU TO FEEL MY TEARS UPON YOUR SPIRIT...MY SPIRIT AS FALLING RAIN UPON A THIRSTY GROUND...I DESIRE TO GIVE YOU OF MY INCREASE...BE PREPARED, BE READY, BE STILL
I HAVE SEEN YOUR DEVOTION, YOUR HEART ON FIRE...
MY BELOVED...I WOULD HAVE YOU LIFT YOUR HEAD AND BEHOLD MY BROKEN BODY..THE WOUNDS IN MY HAND, THE WOUNDS IN MY FEET, THE WOUND IN MY SIDE..
MY PRECIOUS ONE, LOOK, LOOK, LOOK AGAIN...MY WORK ON THE CROSS WAS FINISHED...WHAT YOU SEE IS THE BROKEN LIVES OF MY CHILDREN...THEIR HANDS, THEIR FEET, THEIR SIDES PIERCED FOR MY SAKE...THEIR SUFFERINGS ARE BUT THE FEAR THAT COMES FROM WALKING IN DARKNESS. THEIR ENEMIES ARE DEAF AND BLIND...TWICE DEAD. MY CHILDREN HAVE TAKEN THE HAND OF THEIR ENEMIES TO LEAD THEM...AND BOTH WALK ABOUT IN THE DARKNESS, THE BLIND LEADING THE BLIND...
BUT I TELL YOU THIS...MY LIGHT IS COME, AND THE BRANCHES OF THE VINE WILL BURN AND NOT BE CONSUMED...
BELOVED BRANCH OF THE VINE, THE FIRE YOU FEEL IN YOUR HEART IS MY CONSUMING FIRE...SEE,.... YOU ARE NOT CONSUMED...THIS IS THE COVENANT THAT I HAVE MADE WITH MY BELOVED WHO WILL TURN ASIDE AND APPROACH ME...
NOW TAKE OFF YOUR FLESHLY SHOES, SO THAT YOU MAY WALK ON HOLY GROUND...YES, YOUR WORKS YOUR IMAGININGS, YOUR FEARS...
FEAR NOT...DOUBT NOT...
COME BOLDLY BEFORE ME...
LEAN NOT TO YOUR OWN UNDERSTANDING
TRUST ME, AS I PREPARE YOU FOR THE WORK
THAT I AM ABOUT TO DO
BE STILL, AND KNOW THAT I AM GOD.
Friday, May 21, 2010
Wednesday, May 19, 2010
** But the person who has the Spirit can evaluate everything, while no one is in a position to evaluate Him. For who has known the mind of ADONAI? Who will counsel Him? But we have the mind of the Messiah! (1 Corinthians 2:15)
LORD, STRENGTHEN US IN OUR WAITING...WE HALT IN BEING QUICK IN THE LAYING ON OF HANDS...IN SPEAKING A WORD OUT OF SEASON...
GIVE US YOUR DISCERNMENT LORD...THE GIFT OF KNOWLEDGE THAT SURPASSES OUR OWN AND IS ABOVE OUR OWN THINKING AND WAY...MAY WE SURRENDER IN OBEDIENCE.... FOLLOWING AFTER YOU BLESSED SHEPHERD AND KING...LET YOUR ROD AND STAFF GUIDE US IN THE WAY...LET OUR LIPS BE FILLED WITH HIGH PRAISES AND JOY EVER MORE...AMEN
Tuesday, May 18, 2010
The Secret Place...a place where only my thoughts and inspiration is a galaxy unto itself before the Light of God's fellowship.
Where do my thoughts come from?
What is it that inspires me...
Somehow a word gives power to create...
and for me it creates Light...
and the Light frees me from the darkness...
I am no longer alone...
The Light goes before me...and I will not turn and go back into the darkness...
There is peace in the Light...there is Hope in the Light...There is Rest in the Light...
Not the light of knowledge...not the light of man's wisdom...not the light that turns to darkness...
But that Day Star that rises in the soul...
Where the Creator commands, "LET THERE BE LIGHT"
It is the Spirit Word...the very Breath of God...
He alone can bring your broken heart, your broken spirit ...perhaps broken in mind and body... helpless and hopeless...
just reach out and ask Him to lift you into His Light...
Your life may be void and seem to have no purpose...
I'm not going to try to convince you that you've believed a lie...but you have...
or prove to you that what I'm saying is the Truth...
But I have told you of the Truth...He is the Truth...He is the Way...the Light and Life Eternal...
It's His work to draw you to Himself...and just now, I ask that He do that...
Are you willing to turn and walk into His Light...Are you willing to accept the fact that He has paid the price for you to be set you free from the powers of sin in your life?..
He does not blackmail you with condemnation of your sin...to get you to become a proselyte...
He only stands before you in the Holiness of who He is and offers you the only way out of Darkness...To free you from the penalty of death...because of the sin of disobedience that required a blood sacrifice to be free of the penalty...
Not the sacrifice of animals, or human life, or payment of any kind...
it would not change your heart...or deliver you from the BONDAGE OF THE HUMAN NATURE...
Only HIS SACRIFICIAL BLOOD which He shed on the cross of Calvary was sufficient to deliver us from this bondage...
IT WAS LOVE THAT PAID THE PRICE!
All you have to do is SURRENDER...
All you have to do is Confess...that He is Lord, that He is King, that You are His, as unworthy as you may feel, as filthy as you may feel, as numb as you may feel...as hopeless as you may feel...
Call out to Him..."Jesus, Jesus, Jesus."
Then wait...believing that He wants to take you as His own...to make you brand new, and give you the power of His Holy Spirit Word, that you may become a son or daughter of His...
Your works won't do anything for you...what you think you know, won't do anything for you...begging, pleading, crying, cursing,
Just let go...He sees your heart, He knows your mind, your motives, your ego, your emotions, your excuses...
All He wants, is you...to Love and be a part of the Life that has always been in Him from the beginning...
A Life He wants you to want...
A Life He wants you to choose.............................jOY
LORD, I WANT TO BRING BEFORE YOU THOSE WHO ARE REACHING OUT FOR HEALING IN THEIR LIVES...
THOSE ON BEDS OF SICKNESS, THAT FIND IT HARD EVEN TO PRAY, THEY HAVE BECOME SICK EVEN IN THEIR HEART AND MIND, THE SOUL AND SPIRIT...FEELING NUMB, DISHEARTENED, AND IN SOME CASES, JUST DON'T CARE ANYMORE.
I COME AGAINST THE ENEMY OF THEIR SOULS WHO DESIRES TO DESTROY THEM...WHO BEATS THEM DOWN WITH LIES AND PAIN AND HOPELESSNESS...
COME TO THEM..."NOW"...EVEN NOW LORD...REACH DOWN IN YOUR MERCY AND GRACE...IN THIS THEY WILL KNOW THAT YOU ARE GOD...BECAUSE THEY ARE HEALED, YES...BUT MORE TO THE POINT...THAT THEY ARE LOVED AND NOT FORSAKEN...
FOR THOSE WHO MUST SUFFER AFFLICTION...BE THEIR COMFORT, LET YOUR FAITH REMAIN IN THEM TO STRENGTHEN AND SUSTAIN THEM...
SURROUND THEM WITH ANGELS OF MERCY, AND TRUE COMPASSION...
LORD SURROUND THEM WITH YOUR EVERLASTING ARMS...AND THE JOY OF YOUR PRESENCE THAT WILL INFUSE THEM WITH THE STRENGTH OF EAGLES, THAT THEY MAY WALK AND NOT BE WEARY, RUN AND NOT FAINT...
YOU ARE OUR HEALING LORD...AND THOUGH YOU SLAY US, YET WILL WE SERVE YOU...FOR YOU ARE THE GOD OF LIFE! HERE IN ME, AND FOREVER MORE...AMEN
LORD, THANK YOU FOR THIS MORNING...THANK YOU FOR PREPARING MY HEART AND MIND TO FACE THIS DAY...I AM AT YOUR MERCY TO RECEIVE YOUR GRACE...
EVEN IN MY WEAKNESS, YOU CALLED ME TO LAY BEFORE YOU MY HEART
YOU ENCAMPED ABOUT MY SOUL AND SPOKE IN A STILL SMALL VOICE
YOU ALONE HAVE RENT THE VEIL OF MY HEART AND MIND
THE WIND OF YOUR SPIRIT BLOWS THERE FREELY
COMING AND GOING AS YOU WILL
YOU SHOW ME THE PATH OF LIFE
AND IN YOUR PRESENCE IS FULLNESS OF JOY
AT YOUR RIGHT HAND ARE PLEASURES EVERMORE
YOU FEED ME THE BREAD THAT THE WORLD KNOWS NOT OF
YOU, MY LORD ARE THAT LIVING BREAD
ALL GIFTS AND PROPHESYING WILL CEASE
AND THOUGH I UNDERSTAND ALL MYSTERIES
IF I DO NOT HAVE MY BEING IN YOU
I AM NOTHING
EVEN IF I HAD ALL FAITH AND COULD MOVE MOUNTAINS
WITHOUT YOU, I AM NOTHING
FOR IN YOU ALONE I CAN BEAR ALL THINGS
BELIEVE ALL THINGS
HOPE ALL THINGS
ENDURE ALL THINGS
ALL ELSE WILL CEASE AND FADE AWAY
BUT YOU, MY LORD, REMAIN
YOUR WORD REMAINS FOREVER
YOU ARE THAT LIVING WORD
YOU DWELL IN MY HEART
I LONG TO KNOW YOU
EVEN AS I AM KNOWN
TO PUT AWAY ALL CHILDISH THINGS
AND STAND PLEASING IN YOUR SIGHT
THANK YOU LORD FOR WALKING WITH ME THIS MORNING
FOR CAUSING ME TO MEASURE HOW FAR YOU'VE BROUGHT ME
IN THIS JOURNEY OF FAITH, THIS JOURNEY OF LIFE
FOR REJOICING TOGETHER OVER SAINTS MADE PERFECT
FOR THE CLOUD OF WITNESSES WHO REJOICE AND GIVE
PRAISE BEFORE YOUR THRONE
THANK YOU FOR THE BEAUTY OF YOUR FINISHED WORK
FOR APPOINTING TO US BEAUTY FOR ASHES
THE OIL OF GLADNESS FOR MOURNING
A GARMENT OF PRAISE FOR THE SPIRIT OF HEAVINESS;
THAT WE MIGHT BE CALLED THE TREES OF RIGHTEOUSNESS
THE PLANTING OF THE LORD
THAT YOU MIGHT BE GLORIFIED MY LORD
YOU ARE THE VINE
I AM BUT AN EXTENDED BRANCH OF YOU
FROM AGE TO AGE THE SAME
THAT I MIGHT BEAR FRUIT UNTO SALVATION
FOR AS THE EARTH BRINGS FORTH HER BUD
AND AS THE GARDEN CAUSES THE THINGS THAT ARE GROWN
IN IT TO SPRING FORTH; SO YOU MY LORD GOD, WILL CAUSE
RIGHTEOUSNESS AND PRAISE TO SPRING FORTH BEFORE
I AM "NOW" CENTERED IN YOU
RELYING ON YOU
LISTENING TO YOU
WAITING ON YOU
SPEAK LORD, EVEN AS YOU WALKED WITH ME IN YESTERDAY'S GARDEN
I WALKED THROUGH YESTERDAY'S GARDEN
I'VE WALKED THERE MANY A TIME
NOW IT'S LIFELESS AND EMPTY
WHERE WEEDS AND POISON IVY CLIMB
YET THE ECHOS OF SONGS THROUGH THE AGES PAST
THOSE SWEET HALLOWED HYMNS OF PRAISE
REVERBERATE STILL ALL AROUND ME
IN SO MANY CHERISHED WAYS
"PRAISE GOD FROM WHOM ALL BLESSINGS FLOW"
STILL RESTS UPON MY TONGUE
I HEAR IT STILL WITHIN MY HEART
IT NEEDS BE EVER SUNG
SUNG WITH HALLELUJAHS
SUNG WITH GREAT AMENS
SUNG WITH GLORIOUS LONGING
WITH FAMILY AND FRIENDS
SO I'LL LISTEN ER SO CLOSELY
TO LOVE'S SWEET, FAMILIAR REFRAINS
AND THANK THE GOD OF HEAVEN
AGAIN, AND AGAIN, AND AGAIN
AS I WALKED IN YESTERDAY'S GARDEN
I WALKED AND TALKED WITH HIM
AND REMEMBERED YESTERDAY'S BLOSSOMS
THAT BLOOMED THERE JUST FOR HIM
THEY TOLD OF THE OLD, OLD STORY
OF JESUS AND HIS LOVE
THEIR PRAISES, STILL TRIUMPHANT
NOW IN HEAVENLY REALMS ABOVE
THOUGH FLOWERS FADE BEFORE ME
THEIR FRAGRANCE FILLS MY DAY
EVEN THROUGH DESERT WASTE LAND
THOSE GARDENS OF YESTERDAY
I'LL LISTEN EVER SO CLOSELY
FOR LOVE'S SWEET MELODIOUS REFRAIN
AND THANK THE GOD OF HEAVEN
AGAIN, AND AGAIN AND AGAIN