Finally, whatever is true, whatever is noble, whatever is right, whatever is pure, whatever is lovely, whatever is admirable – if anything is excellent or praiseworthy – think about such things. Whatever you have learned or received or heard from me, or seen in me – put it into practice. And the God of peace will be with you. Philippians 4:8-9
Tuesday, September 8, 2009
LORD...My heart is so full this morning...you are so wonderful to know my heart...to let me know that you love me...and to always surprise me in Birthday Party ways!
I needed so badly for someone to just say, "I love you...you're special to me." Twice I had called my only daughter to tell her I loved her, and before I could say it...she asked me to forgive her because she was so busy, and that she would call right back...and she didn't.
I was grieving over this, this morning...hadn't even gotten dressed...didn't want to face another day without some kind of one on one with someone....Yep...the same ol pity party that I've been to before.
Lord, forgive me...again... I've looked beyond your ever-present love, and in my way said it wasn't enough...Oh Lord...it is enough...You are my one desire above all else...
The door bell rang...the dog barked uncontrollably...I'm hopping about trying to get my cloths on....thinking, "who could that possibly be, this early in the morning?""Just a minute please" I hollered.....Opening the door....there stood my lovely daughter, with a bed tray...flowers (scarlet violets) Hot organic coffee, in a silver carafe, pastries, and fresh cut fruit pieces...
"Hi Mom...I wanted to serve you breakfast in bed this morning."...It makes me cry to think of it even now...but even more...that sunshine bright smile that is perpetually hers...even when her heart is breaking...She is and has been one of God's priceless gifts to me....Tawni Rae....named after her daddy...(Leaping deer, sunshine)....You could write a book about her life, and Father God's Grace Covenant with her...I was speachless...blessed beyond measure...and ashamed at the same time...It was like a surprise birthday party...she made me feel so special...a vacation at an Old English cottage...tea and crumpets...a french garden...all the above...
She was used to teach me a life long lesson...and to surrender my needs to the realization that...always...the Lord is by my side...my One Great Love. And that Love will come...fellowship will come...if by faith I trust in life's wondrous surprises......THANK YOU LORD.